Neko

[Please refer to Part 1] WARNING: This post is full of rant, rant, RANT, bad karma, bad rep and bullocks! Ops, my bad..

Just when I thought it wasn’t a big deal, a rumor aflamed without my knowledge. (I recommend you to read Part 1 first before proceeding)

Rumor has it, that the Department Head I was to email and I had an argument. And this involved the head of still, another Department. (So let’s name them Dept. X and Dept Y) Dept. X is the one I was to email.

The Director of Dept. Y approached one of its Managers and asked if it was true. That I had an argument, a heated debate that is, with Dept. X Head and Dept. Y Head.

The Dept. Y Head was surprised to hear that, because no argument ever spurred among the three of us. Not even from between any of us. As a matter of fact, for the past 3 years, never was a project hit weeks or days before the deadline until now. The last 4 projects were a success that not even the data had that much discrepancies nor problems. Dept. X and Dept. Y consulted with me smoothly and things were in harmony until that senseless and baseless rumor started.

Basically, I really don’t care much about gossips. I find it a waste of time. I don’t get it how some people find pleasure in this petty minuscule act, as if they can’t live a day without starting a rumor or hearing one. But the problem here now is, the Directors have heard of it. And since Dept. X Head and I are new in our positions, we can’t afford any bad rep.

Is this a destabilization plot?

Dept. X Head and I talked about this. Strangely, on the same day, Supervisor Two, not Supervisor so and so, (Yes, another Sup!) sent an email thru our server. She has full knowledge that it is possible for a third-party or the Portal’s Admin to have access to this. But despite that, still emailed questions about some guy from our company who was courting me.

She claimed if somebody tries to get into my mail I can easily file a complaint. But, logically, that “somebody” have already read it before discovering “someone” had opened my mail. StupiOd! yep, s-t-u-p-O-i-d!

The thing that bothers me, is Supervisor Two is accusing that there is already a relationship between me and this certain unkown guy, although still asking who he is. The letter was basically guessing names, mentioning personalities and trying to puzzle out who the exact guy was. It ended with wishing me luck and happiness and asking for a reply, stressing if I’d like to.

Emotional Blackmail is what I call it. Geesh! A personal email at work!? If she liked to ask me something, she should have just approach me directly, IM’ed me or even emailed me thru my Personal Email Addy! But even thru mails, how would I know if she BCC’ed anyone?

But as I said, it IS a waste of time and energy for me to even listen to such things, so I ignored. Didn’t reply and just laughed AT her face, yes making her fully aware that I am laughing AT her! Though I didn’t know if she got what I really laughed about. I doubt it. HA!

The next day tho, Supervisor so and so resurrected from the grave, which is his obfuscating chair. Now, he IM’d.. as if can’t talk to me directly (and i was just two seats away), that the Director of our Department was meaning to ask me since last week, if.. (hold on to your horses ~) I was the alleged serial supplier of cookies and DVD’s to a certain Director. WTF!

And where in their pathetically pitiful minute world did they get such Bullocks!?!?

But what did I do? Let a stampede of horses run after him? nhe.. I just laughed and ignored the IM coz I have better things to do. I only replied after almost an hour when I was finished with my reports and emails for the client. That I haven’t had the slightest clue of what he was saying. He had to spell it out for me, because I am dumb. HA! yeah. yeah.

Yeah! like DUH… *poink* may a big bulldozer run upon their feet while standing on the pavement waiting for a ride… (see, I think I really should be scolded for being too nice)

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photo credit: “Rumors chapter II - Exhauted after time” by josephine_again

I just saw a movie last Saturday night, about a revolutionist from Ireland, Michael Collins. Sadly, I wasn’t able to finish the film on HBO because of my remote control that suddenly controlled me!

Anyway, a quote from that film still moves me, “the best way to beat England is to ignore their power” (ok, not so sure about the exact words, maybe something like that). But the point in this line is “resistance”

I still can’t get over the fact that the Director (at my work) scolded me about being too nice. Yes, that is a big disadvantage when working in the corporate world I guess. Being too nice will lead to abuse. Abuse of others who power-trip.

And so, my case was, last week a Supervisor told me to email the head of one department to clarify something about one of the projects I am handling at the moment. It seems that he was not satisfied with my answer that he needs to hear it himself from somebody from that department. First, he disregarded my authority, but I didn’t feel that way then.

Before I was to do this, I insisted that I need not email that Department Head because I already talked to him. Still, he insisted that it should be documented. Fortunately, or unfortunately, the Director, passed by. And so I informed him that Supervisor so and so told me to send this certain email.

To maybe avoid my embarrassment, the Director talked to me when he was back in his office. He told me that I should know and be firm with my position… That I am not under any supervisor; that I don’t and should not take orders from them; that I go straight to him and should consult things with him first before making any steps. I should know when to decide and the decision should not come from any supervisor.

Maybe I am too nice indeed. But I was only avoiding being labeled as “bossy” again. Because I know I am not. The people under me by all means can call me bossy IF I feel I am one.

And now that Supervisor so and so is handling the same department I am in, he turned out to be 10X more bossy than I am. So I left those who previously labeled me under him. Now they suffer more.. they have seen what “Bossy” really meant.

The problem now is I am hearing complaints even down from the agents. And my heart goes to them because it was not that long ago since I used to be an agent too. So I know how they feel, more than those Sups and Leaders who’s been in their position for years.

Resistance. Ignore the power-tripper. This is where I stand. And I would only do things for the interest of the project and the agents.

I just hope the Director would clear out to the Supervisors as well, that I am not under them. That all concerns I would only address to the Director. And that’s that.

And to sum it up, the only thing that can control me is my TV remote control. Hehe.. CLICK! [x]