Neko

Yes! I’m talking about our BIG Client at work. The project is finally done! Over! Capish! After those growling hours of over-time, 10 hours work a day and having no exceptions for weekends! ohhh.. pfew….

Maybe it’s high time to relax if you may ask? well, hmm.. not really. After that letterI made, and receiving a “denied” mark, due to having an “insufficient” letter erm.. I had the guts to apply of an open position at work! lol. Well, it’s a challenge, and I have nothing to lose anyway.

Only less than half of those who applied will be taken tho. And the job is a bloody one! Coz it’s what one may call “behind the scene” things. If being an Agent/Caller is the backbone, let’s say this position is the nerve cells. Ha! You get the picture…

Yesterday was the last day of filing for the Letter of Intent. Then without warning, they announced today that they’d be calling the Top 6 Qualified Applicants for the interview. Then the floor was full of whispers screening all applicants. (I did not mention that I applied tho) We made bets on who are those six. Ok, experience-wise, I didn’t vote for me (not even in my head). Eh with so many applicants, I didn’t think I’d be among the best. So here goes what my Moogie *.* said, crawling in my head… “it’s all in you”

One hour left before logging out, it all slipped out of my mind. I just concentrated on calling, and not dropping my head from falling asleep. This is the first time I felt sleepy. (yeah, coz I lack sleep yesterday) Anyway, funny, but there is some kind of ecstasy or a higher level of consciousness when you feel sleepy at the same time you wake yourself with a jolly voice talking on the phone… yeah, I know, I’m weird. (ok skip this paragraph)

Then after completing a call, I was still writing on the forms when the announcement was made! I was needed at the Director’s office! Oh my, this is it!I thought. Then they cheered! My Team Leaders tapping my back, cheering and teasing me on.. and my surprised colleagues who thought I didn’t sign (coz I claimed I did not) cheered “Go, Velvet!” (ok, they said my real name that time. ha!)

I have this “thing” with interviews. It was a known fact that all the job applications I applied for (except for my last one, which do not require an interview), I pass the screenings, exams, hands-ons, but when it comes to the “final interview”, I fail. And a fear grew in me after a while. But since this time, I thought I had no chance to be among the top 6, it was almost impossible, but knowing now that I am - I smiled my way to the office, with confidence.

The interview went smooth, spontaneous, and fun. That’s all that matters to me now. I didn’t feel nervous, not one bit. And it was just a casual, fun interview. I felt comfortable and I think I succeeded in making the panel comfortable with me too. That’s plus points, coz they are the ones I will be dealing with everyday - just in case. I was sincere in my answers, and of course, let them hear what they wanna hear too… in a smooth way. hehe..

When I went back on the floor, they all asked me how it went. It was such an uplifting feeling.. hearing all those positive response. I have never felt so appreciated like this before. Yeah, as for those who know me during the early days of Twisted, I was a dark loner who crawls up in one corner, and never spoke with anyone. Well, thanks to my inspiration *.* who helped me stand up and see things in a brighter light..

So now, the results will be announced on Tuesday next week. Honestly, if I do not pass, it’s ok. To overcome another fear, and to feel this good, is satisfying enough.

And yeah, the last song syndrome I acquired today was Slowdive’s Alison. In between dialed numbers, I hum and sing in my head this song. dunno why tho… again. Weirdness will never escape me 8D

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photo credit: “Bow” by El Ray
Cameratoss - Photos created by throwing an old camera around various light sources!